Ego

My ego is shattered. So is yours. Everybody has a part of them that thinks they are the best, the biggest, the fastest, the coolest, the most popular. Ego makes you jealous, it makes you curious, and it makes you wonder. Ego makes you not trust one another. My ego is an enormous weak spot. It seems to me that it’s one of the cruelest parts of us. It’s also a necessary evil, there needs to be a part of you that tells you how great you are. So many times I allow this part of me cause me to go crazy. It’s amazing how your ego can get in the way of common sense. I don’t know where it comes from; it just rises up all on its own. It’s something I can’t control, I don’t know if anyone can. At some point you’re in a situation that you can’t control and it makes you angry. That’s what really kills my ego, not being in control. There are so many times in life you can’t control the situation and you really shouldn’t even try. You just have to learn to let go and do the best you can with what you have. I think once you let go of control you can breathe a little easier and not get so hung up on what your ego is telling you. It’s your ego that worries what people think about you, whether you’re popular, or pretty, or funny, and when you’re not the funniest, prettiest, smartest, most popular one it’s your ego that takes the hit. If you get rejected or picked on it’s the ego that gets bruised. It is one of the most vulnerable parts of a person; no amount of exercise will strengthen it. Even the biggest and strongest, the quiet ones, the funny ones, we all have the same capacity to get hurt. Some people will look for a way to do so on purpose. By finding an arrogant person and “taking them down a notch” they boost their own ego. I’m not saying we should walk on eggshells and be careful not to hurt each others’ feelings, if you’re being honest with someone you will eventually hurt them. It’s the reason that matters most; honesty tends to hurt from time to time, that’s why it’s sometimes called brutal. We should just be aware of the effect when we do it and be sensitive to the ones who are processing the new information that they are not perfect.