Update

It has been several months since I have put anything on here. I could make all kinds of excuses as to how busy I have been but the truth is I could always find five minutes to write down my thoughts, I just didn’t.  To make up for my laziness I have over compensated in other aspects by signing up to do my first triathlon this summer. Also since my last post was about me coming home to start over I should probably say a little bit about how that is going.  I have adjusted well to life in the country, I do miss being in such a large community sometimes but when I get bored I have a pool, gym, four wheeler, trails to run on, and many other things accessible to me.  Being in the National Guard it is very difficult to qualify for 100% of the GI Bill but I have finally done so and decided that if I’m truly going to start over then why not do it by going back to school.  I have enrolled in school full time but I am more than a little nervous.  My last attempt didn’t go so well because I always worked full time while trying to go to school full time so my GPA is slightly lower than I would like but now that I won’t have to work while going to school I will have no excuses.  It’s also more than a little nerve wracking to be going to school in my (mid) 30’s.  I would much rather be seen as the unbelievably extremely attractive super awesome mature guy but I’m afraid it’s probably going to be more like the creepy old dude.  Oh well, if my biggest complaints in life are that the other kids at school don’t think I’m cool then I don’t guess I’m doing too badly.  There are many people in this world with real problems; I’ve seen many first hand who don’t even know they have it bad.  I have a lot of things I’m nervous about right now (I refuse to say afraid) but I believe I can do well.  I have a couple of triathlons this summer (itty bitty short ones!) and I’m going to try my first half-marathon this fall.  I will gain strength from my community of friends who always believe I can do anything and I will continue to wake up every day with a smile and hope for a happy ending (not the dirty kind).  I will be busy but I will make time to do the things that keep me happy and sane.  I will do my best to be a little better about my writing, perhaps it will coincide with some English assignments.  While I am nervous about the future I am also excited; I have realized that starting over just means I get to hit the reset button and do this whole thing with the experience to make the decisions that will keep my future awesome!