A Bitter Rant

I haven’t written anything in so long I have no clue what’s about to happen here.  I just sat down and decided I need to write something.  Here we go.  I have been seeing/hearing a lot of people talking about giving everything to God lately, let me preface by saying I love Jesus as much as the next guy (unless the next guy is Joseph, he’s got the whole dad thing) but I was taught growing up in the church that prayer was private.  In fact I was always taught that your relationship with the lord was private.  Maybe I was taught wrong, not sure.  Preachers used to quote the verse “Beware of practicing your righteousness before other people in order to be seen by them, for then you will have no reward from your Father who is in heaven.”   I guess the thing that bothers me is it sounds like giving up.  I’m a fighter so it just doesn’t feel right for me to just give up.  I know that people will take issue with this but hear me out.  I’m all for asking God for help, you should.  I am also a big fan of thanking him for gifts, you should.  David told Solomon “Be strong and courageous and do the work”.  I don’t mean to get down on fundamentalist or evangelical Christians I just get tired of people calling someone a “fag” before they go home and have premarital sex, the sins are no different, in fact what if the two men are married in a church by a preacher, they are then unified in the eyes of God right?   The college freshman spreading her legs for a pitcher of beer can’t say that.  It seems like it’s becoming more and more cool to blame God.  I’m not exactly a biblical scholar but it seems like he put people through a lot of things back in the day.  Moses didn’t “give it up to God”, God told him what to do and he went out and did it, over and over even when he wanted to quit.  I’m not just talking about giving up or making excuses or even hypocrisy, I’m talking about a lack of love.  I could spread verses all day about not giving up, “But you, take courage! Do not let your hands be weak, for your work shall be rewarded.”  I wonder how the Westboro Baptist Church keeps gaining members, I’m pretty sure there is a serious lack of love in that entire group.  The thing is that to me it always sounds righteous which I guess would be the point technically but no one wants to be reminded that they’re a sinner.  If it were up to me every member of that church would burn alive but it’s not up to me.  Again, I have no problem with faith, it’s a part of my life, many people may not really know how much because I keep it mostly to myself.  The fact is I pray several times a day, mostly for forgiveness.  I pray when I wake up, when I go to bed, when I’m running sometimes, just whenever.  I don’t fold my hands and close my eyes; I just talk to Him in my head and no one knows any different but Him.  This post is getting a little long and it’s all over the place, sorry if I offended, well pretty much everybody.